Delayed MRI scan
Well, my MRI scan was delayed - quite an odd story! I went home that Friday lunchtime to get changed to do down to Southampton; whilst I was there it felt like I trapped a nerve in my neck - intense pain and throbbing in my head and my back/hips/egs really ached.
I had to phone and cancel my MRI scan as there was no way I would have been able to drive down there or even lay on the table for 30-45mins.
This all lasted two weeks, my hips and legs ended up being so stiff and painful I could hardly walk. H had to rub muscle rub ointment into my legs and bum every night to try to get them to ease up a little and I had to resort to propping myself up with a V-pillow and have a couple of round bolster cushions under my knees so I wouldn’t wake up too stiff.
To be honest, it felt like the after effects of when I had my stroke and it worried the crap out of me. I was convinced I was on a slippery road downwards but all of a sudden it went away, nearly overnight.
This was last Saturday, and now I am feeling pretty much “normal”.
Yesterday I had my revised MRI scan which wasn’t nice. The only was I was able to get through it was to keep my eyes closed all the time and just think how brave Sam is being with his legs in casts at the moment, bless him. It made my forty five minutes in the scanner seem like a doddle - I know he is in real discomfort, both mentally and physically so if he can carry on with that then I can manage a flipping scan. Perspective..
This morning I had a follow up with Dr Giallombardo (one of his registrars actually) and the could see no worrying symptoms of what I have just described and said “wait fr the scans and lumbar puncture results”. Basically, if they don’t show up anything cancerous then the docs will probably cut my head open and remove one/all of these lumps. So basically I’m fucked either way - if it IS cancer I’ll be in for chemo and hoping I recover, if it ISN’T then I’ll be in for brain surgery so they can remove whatever the hell it is 
I am devastated, keep filling up here at work right now and I really don’t know how I am going to get through the next x-many weeks but I have to do it for the sake of the wedding and for H and Sam. That’s what it’s about, The rest of it can go hang but my every thought is about leaving them two and it scares the shit out of me