the first of many
well, it’s my first trip to Southanpton today, albeit not for treatment but for the “setup” and config session. I am feeling a bit worried about it all and more than a little down.. I have been suffering from a headache since the weekend and whilst I’m sure it’s nothing but a standard headache it worries me that things are “starting to happen” alreaady. I could pop off at any time, I have no idea when I may start to feel bad.
Sadly I have been willing the time away to get to start my treatment so I will get a bit of a fix and have more time etc.. I know it’s going to be really shitty and I will feel pretty crappy for a while from it but it will give me time, and at the moment that is the greatest currency.
Hayley took Sam off to school this morning and it upset me a little, I couldn’t help thinking I might not see him again.. completely irrational I know and there’s no reason for it at all but hey..
My brother Steve came down on the weekend (he’s currently studying at Brighton BIMM) and crashed at ours Saturday/Sunday night.. when the time came for him to leave Monday morning I had this bad feeling I may never see him again 
Again, completely irrational but what can you do..