That time again :(
Tomorrow at 11am is my next scan, no big shakes but it’s the precursor to me finding out what my immediate future holds. I am completely shit-scared and can’t think straight today. Like I say, tomorrow isn’t the day I get the news but it is the first link in the chain isn’t it. I have to wait until July 11th to get the results and find out what’s going on (if anything) in that head of mine.
I think that over the past couple of months we have gradually gotten used to a *relatively* normal life and not worrying too much about that black cloud hanging on the horizon. I thas been nice not having to worry about every little pain and ache to see if it was to progress to anything more major. Now we are back in the hospital loop (scan/check up) it all comes flooding back and I think if the news this time isn’t good it is going to hit me/us a lot harder that it did last time. I think last time we couldn’t quite take it all in, and now having these last three months or so of lesser worry levels, a shot of bad news is going to sting us all badly.
Fingers crossed.