That time again (Pt.2):(
Well it’s just over a week till my next check-up and I am already getting worried and more than a little scared - can I be really lucky and have a second consecutive stay of execution? After the last check-up, where I was told I was “looking good” the best I can hope for is that nothing has changed/grown/appeared in me and they’ll want to see me in another four months 
I find that, when I get into times like this, I start listening to older/heavier music and it really calms me down - maybe it’s an outlet for my frustrations and inner anger at my situation I don’t know. Maybe it’s taking me back to times when I was younger and life was so much healthier. Not that would change any of my life now, apart from the Big C thing so maybe it’s me regressing to a time when I was healthy and didn’t constantly worry on every little ache and pain.
Right now the stereo is taking a bashing with some old Ozzy, makes the hairs on my neck stand up!
Off to see “The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian” at noon today, we sat and re-watched “The Lion, witch and the wardrobe” the other day in preparation.. I can’t wait.
July 3rd, 2008 at 12:21 pm
i kinda know what you mean…when I have times of trouble and concern (mainly hormonal at the moment) I go back to listening to the old stuff. I seem to have gone back to my glam roots at the moment and listening to early Poison, MCrue, Alice Cooper and Kiss (on tape!) and lovin it. Makes me feel 17 again when I drank and smoked what the hell I liked and didnt give a shit about anything!
As for your inpending medical update, I have a feeling in my waters that your stay of execution will be extended…..I hope Im proved right! Fingers, legs and toes crossed for ya. x