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I think the side effects of the radiotherapy are really starting to kick in now. I am tired, have a sore throat and this evening I have contracted a serious case of hiccups which just won’t stop Seems the only way of temporarily stopping it is to suck a boiled sweet but that’s not a long-lasting option. I think a trip to The Internet for advice is called for, I just had to get out of bed as it was keeping both Hayley and I awake..

EDIT: A cup of tea, two chocolate chip digestives and three sucked-to-death boiled sweets later.. I am (at least temoporarily) cured! It’s now nearly 2am and I will try to get a few hours sleep on the sofa, a pile of boiled sweets on the side just in case

I’m sat in the garden, perched under the parasol ’cause it is spitting a little and the dog is running round the garden like a bit of a loon. Everything smells fresh, there is a pleasing nip in the air and right now it feels good to be alive

This had me stumped for quite a while, I couldn’t select my wlan adapter as a point of entry on my wireless network.. but there is a workaround and here it is.

Simple

I was going to say “no specific reason” but obviously it’s my health situation at the moment.. okay I’ve been home for a couple of days and it HAS really helped my recovery a lot - I’m not using my stick any more and I can potter around the house on my own and unafraid of falling.
Thing is, I am scared of the future and what it may bring - okay, I;ve lived like this for the past few years so it is nothing new but I am, right now, experiencing a constant nagging feeling of worry, stress and fear. Sad I know, I AM really happy to be here and looking forward to every day as it comes - I think maybe I haven’t totally switched over from the “Hospital” frame of mind to the “Home” one -I still have one more visit to the Hospital on Tuesday so I can’t really put this all behind me until then, I suppose.

On the other hand, Luna is really helping to bring a little new life to the place - she is a real sweetheart (despite just coming in and weeing on the floor!). I’ll post up some pitures soon

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V.. I probably can empathise with her more than the average MOTP can (I have had restless nights thinking about leaving Sam, Hayley et all in the lurch etc) but did I go running to the press when I found out I had cancer, moaning that I had to leave my Big Brother job?

I bet the guy in the bed opposite me last week, who barely managed to get through his brain attacks and it still fighting it, who has young kids and a wife to fight for too, is not too chuffed either right now.

Don’t get me wrong, I feel for her and all others who are stricken own with thie Godawful disease I really do.. just bugged me that it is splashed across the BBC website, the Currant Bun etc.. okay it gets stuff into peoples minds and that is never a bad thing but it really irks me that a scare like this and she is actually posing for crying photos in the paper.. I wonder if I can get £100k for my story and pictures of me crying at the thought of (once again) losing those I love nearst and dearest.

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It is 4.30pm Friday afternoon and I have been home for a good couple of hours now - managed to get my treatment done early this morning and all discharge paperwork sorted so I’m out!

I have to go back next Tuesday for my last Radiotherapy appointment but don’t have to bother going to the ward (C4), other than to pick up my trainers I left there earlier today.

That’s it for now, going to go and have a chill